Work, Work and EQ2

Thats about all I do anymore. I should keep this blog up more, I'll try to do so in the following days.

This week I'm off Wednesday and Saturday. 11:15am-7:30pm on Monday. 3pm-11pm Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday. Every 3-11pm is a Uscan shift, I am really starting to LOATHE uscan. Though it's really the only thing giving me hours at this point, because if I was to go back to normal cashiering I'd get only 20-26 hours a week, when hoenstly I need a minimum of 32 to be able to afford bills & rent.

My room is an utter and complete train wreck, and I'm going to try and get that in order. I also need to go ahead and print out the Transcript request form for FaithACA so I can give it to Joel to hand in to the school when he goes in tomorrow.

I'll post later on, for now I only have about an hour to get some dishes done and get that transcript request form printed and filled out, and some other odds and ends.

Work Schedule-3

Sunday - 1:30 pm - 6:00 pm

Monday - 6:00 pm - 12:00 am

Tuesday - 12:30 pm - 6:45 pm

Wednesday - Off Work

Thursday -8:00 am - 12:00 pm

Friday - Off Work

Saturday - 1:00 pm - 9:00 pm

Money Doesn't Like Me

 Money doesn't seem to like me because I have a hard time trying to hold onto it for more then a day. I've got to do the following with my pay check tomorrow.

-Pay my credit card balance off. ($35 bucks)

-Buy a power supply for my dad's computer. ($50-70 bucks)

-Pay for a subscription to EverQuest II. ($15 bucks)

I used the last bit of my paycheck from last week on buying a gig of ram for my computer. Which I'm finally getting back after nearly 10 months of it being away from me. I really get tired of being treated like a child by my parents. I am hoping that this is a step in the direction of them not doing that anymore. Though she seems to be ramping up the hate meter on me by always spewing out her bullshit about hating homosexuals and her dirty comments about me.

It's really emotionally tiring and grating to feel what she thinks about me in all her snide comments and lectures. Honestly, I never had this kind of emotional hate come from Jan, yet from someone who has been twice as sane and twice as caring as Jan could even hope to be I am getting this bullshit. It's utterly confusing for her to call me her son but say those rude dirty things to me.

Work Schedule-2

Sunday - 1:00 pm - 5:45 pm

Monday - 3:30 pm - 7:30 pm

Tuesday - 12:00 pm - 4:00 pm

Wednesday - 7:45 am - 11:45 am

Thursday -Off Work

Friday - 6:00 pm - 10:00 pm

Saturday - Off Work

Clarity

 When you see this masterpiece of art at a museum and your just stopped by it's subtleties....You try with one word to express your emotions, but your so caught up in the feeling that you can not.

 Then in even years later when you think about the work of art, in all its glory and in the flesh, you want to cry because it was so perfect that you couldn't even find a word for it in the English language to describe it. That frustration, that almost pain, that brings you to tears because your can't express yourself. A thing that all humans feel a great need to do. That cripples you to the point of being brought to tears. It's hard to imagine what life would be like, if all we could do is just stand their expressionless. Emotionless and yet have so much inside of us that we are just brought to tears because we can't express it.

That utter loss of self expression for that single moment, it is very scary. Yet it's the most amazing feeling, that I have ever felt in my entire life. There needs to be a word for that, one with more feeling then just expressionless.Because it's more like a combination of being expressionless and in awe....Clarity actually comes closer to explaining that feeling than anything else I've said does. Because you come to this realization that life is so much more then what you take it for on a daily basis.Yet, it's so hard to really change, to accept what you learned in that moment and take it with you. Because if you ran around being nostalgic and a perfect human being you wouldn't really be living. Taking that lesson with you, a lesson that you learned from art. If you could actually carry the emotions and nostalgia with you every moment of your life, then it would be a paradox. Humans just can't do it, it's a paradox or maybe contradiction would be a better word.

 Humans just simply can't take everything in their life to be as meaningful as it really is. It just isn't in our nature. No matter how much we all know it's the RIGHT thing to do. You have to survive, and go on living each day, taking things for granted. If you don't then your better then the rest of us, yet your not really living. Your so caught up, in the singular moments, and living them one at a time and cherishing them that you aren't taking care of the things that society has made important. In a perfect world, one where coincidently my word I search for exists, society and normal human nature wouldn't hold any constraints. Greed, Health, Ethics, Philosophy, Art, Science, they all really just get in the way of being this way. Yet without them we can't atleast glimpse at what it could be like to live in a world where we can just cherish every single moment, and every single miracle that is our pathetic existence in this random universe.

Work Schedule

Sunday - Off Work

Monday - 4:00 pm - 8:00 pm

Tuesday - Off Work

Wednesday - 3:15 pm - 7:15 pm

Thursday - 4:00 pm - 8:00 pm

Friday - 4:00 pm - 8:00 pm

Saturday - 11:00 am - 3:00 pm

Zoo Atlanta

Yesterday, well now Tuesday, I called out sick from work because I wanted to go to the zoo.

I did very much enjoy my day out from work, and my wonderful day at Zoo Atlanta. I throughly enjoyed the Zebra, Kangaroos, Gorillaz, and Panda Bears the most. I am going to post a few pictures now that I took using my cell phone, though we have two one-use cameras that are full of pictures. I think I might join one of those slide show websites like Flickr, or something once all of those pictures are done developing.





I do love all things oriental, and Pandas are a classic icon in traditional Chinese lore for luck. For a while I had a great idea of using Bambo as a border for my room, I love how it feels, how it looks, and how delicate looking the leaves look. Apparently though all panda's can think is how freaking good it is, hehe.

This was the biggest turtle I'd ever seen in my whole life. The best part about it wasn't how huge it was, but how it had a bowel movement at the exact time we approached. Was so great to be greeted by his greasy fart! One of the children at the Zoo bursted out laughing and his mother said "Oh god thats so disgusting!". I couldn't help but laugh and then sigh as I knew this would be a great topic for my brothers to have for a long time.




I LOVE kangaroos. This one was flashing us casually as we passed by.
My brother in law, Paul, standing behind a Gorilla Statue.